Shitty to hear mano. Losing a parent is insanely painful, and to be real honest it never really goes away. It shouldn't. Remembering a loved one lost makes them immortal. I lost my Mom when my (now recent) wife was 6 months pregnant. My kiddo is 7 years old now, her brother 4. I feel obligated to find ways to depart my mothers wisdom on her, in doing so it keeps her alive. She'd want me to be strong, and I try to do what's best in her honor.
This link is going to be a tear jerker, gets me every time, but Rich Eisen talking about the loss of a loved one. Worst Fraternity